I feel you beckoning me closer. That you want my full heart next to your own. When I am near you, I feel exposed and broken open. But freedom rushes in and around me. Exposed both to who I am and everything I’m not. Yet it’s so free to realize what I’m not. I don’t have to be the things I’m not when I am near you. I have become apart of something beautiful when I am next to your heart. You beat life into me, channels of flowing love and light and mercy. I stayed at a distance from you for so long. The thorns that lined your head and heart were too painful for me to gaze upon. I did not want to touch your wounds or see you there. My own wounds became too much aching inside of me. Your Mother’s heart, although flowering with love, seemed repeatedly pierced. I feared being broke open like that. And now I have been, and I feel so alive. The broken seams now bursting with light and life.
May you have the courage to be broken open today, into His loving gaze. May He astound you by His closeness to you and hold your heart so close to His own. May He provide in the midst of the ache and longing for depth and encouragement.
I was so moved by the last line of the reading from yesterday...”It is something very near to you, already in your mouths and in your hearts; you have only to carry it out." -Dt 30:14 What the Lord is asking of you is already within you. He has already ravished your heart and placed it within. All you have to do is wake up to it. To look it back in the eye and say yes. Boldly say yes, despite how little the yes feels. All you have to do is carry it out. May your heart have the courage to allow love to bloom today. Through the piercings and the thorns, may flowers of hope and holy boldness bloom within.